17th June 2015, 11.01pm

I've been feeling extremely lost lately. I don't know who I am or what I identify as.  I told Zach that I feel like I might be genderfluid. He completely flipped out saying that he isn't gay and if I identify as a guy sometimes then I am just a guy to him... I don't know if he actually realized how much that hurt for me to hear... I've been crying since he said that... If I have to be a girl 24/7 for him to stay, then I will... My love for him is stronger than any desire I have to be a male. I feel as though I am betraying myself by saying that, but... It's true... I want him to be happy with me... I just don't know what to do...