18th April 2017, 8.18pm

There have been a lot of things I've tried to deny. The main one is the fact that I was raped. I was raped at age 13 by someone I thought was my friend. I was a freshman in high school. He was a year or two older than me. I thought he was sweet and kind, but he turned out to be nasty and awful.

David raped me, too. It took me a while to understand that it was rape. I was scared to say no. You should never ever be scared to say no. Just because you don't say no doesn't mean it isn't rape. Consent is mandatory. He never got my consent. He raped me every time we saw each other for most of our relationship. I was too scared to say no. I was terrified of being hit because of saying no, so I kept my mouth shut. I was raped. A lot. I am a rape survivor. I'm still absolutely terrified of running into David...

3rd April 2017, 2.02pm

As an introvert, I have a hard time being around people. I get drained from being around more than 5 or 6 people at a time. Because of this, I have a hard time in most of my classes since they're usually closer to 24 people. It gets worse when I'm depressed. So you can imagine how today is going....

2nd April 2017, 9.46pm

What are you supposed to do when it's show week but you can hardly get yourself out of bed without crying? You persist. You tell yourself that the show must go on. You tell yourself that you have to because you are needed. You tell yourself that you would be severely missed. You tell yourself that you can do this better than anyone else can. You force yourself to get up and talk to the cast and crew. You stay quiet about your inner turmoil so the cast can vent to you about their show problems. Shows only last so long. So are these days where you struggle to even open your eyes in the morning. You persist.