11th September 2014, 6.02pm

I've been getting more and more depressed lately. I don't really know how to fix it anymore either... Nothing I do works. At the moment, I have a rubber band around my wrist in case I start trying to find something sharp... I just don't know how to be happy anymore... I don't think it's homesickness, though. No, it's much more serious than just that... I've been wanting to hurt myself a lot recently... I haven't been eating right or at all... I just want to stay in bed for a few years or so...