14th March 2014, 10.17am

My mind is just racing today. I can't wrap my brain around the fact that I will be in France in just under a month now. I don't know how I should feel. I feel like I'm no where close to being ready. There's a lot I still need to finish up before I go....

I haven't cut in almost three weeks. I'm getting better I think but I want to cut right now so what does that say? I don't know I just don't know anymore.

I don't want to go to work today. It's a short shift though so it shouldn't be too terrible.

I just wanted to put this here. There is no rhyme or reason for this. Just wanted to.