11th March 2014, 10.04am

Last night was just a bad night. My fiance and I ended up fighting more. I'm done with this but I love him. I wonder if he actually loves me anymore though. He kept saying I'm abusive because I was asking for some freaking respect. I don't know how much longer I can take this.... I ended up crying to one of his friends last night. I kept saying I deserved all of these "punishments" that my fiance comes up with for me. That he was just making sure that I behaved myself... This morning I realized how crazy that really sounds. I just want to have a good relationship for once but it seems that I'm doomed to be hurt no matter who I'm with...