10th March 2014, 2.16pm

I'm done being everyone's bitch, but there is absolutely no way to get through life without kissing at least a few asses in the process unless I want to be a complete outcast. I have been on the brink of tears most of today and I still have to go to work later.... I thought about suicide for the first time in a while last night. I thought of just slicing open my wrists.... Just cutting a bit deeper than normal.... I thought of how it would feel to finally be out of all this chaos... I don't think I'd really be missing anything, though. I would just... Die. That's all it would be. It could be the end all, be all. I could simply end my life. There really isn't anything to stop me at this point anymore. I'm done being the one there for everyone then being the one left when in need myself. Life is so fucking pointless anyways.