3rd February 2016, 12.31am

I almost cut yesterday... I don't know why yesterday was so bad but it was. I was sharpening my knife, getting ready to cut but then I got a message from Ben asking when I was going to be coming over... I literally dropped everything and went over by him immediately... it definitely helped me rethink it, but I still want to... my wrist is still itching for the blade... too bad I'm stronger than the urges. I refuse to give in. I'm going to be okay. I just need to give it time...