12th October 2015, 9.35am

I really need someone to smack me as hard as they can... Every night I've been getting closer and closer to opening up communication lines with David again... I don't know. Maybe it isn't that bad of an idea... Maybe it could work out this time... Maybe everything would be okay... Maybe I just made up all of the things that happened.... I think I'm going to message him... I'll do it today sometime... Not sure when, but I think I will...