9th August 2016, 4.06pm

I was fired today. I loved my job and I have no idea what to do with myself these last few days before I head back to school. My work was one of the few things keeping me from my depression.... all I've done today is cry and go for a walk with Nick... he's at work now...

On the bright side, Nick and I have been together a month now. It feels like... I don't know exactly... he makes me happy... Ben says that this is the happiest he's ever seen me these past 2 years.

6th July 2016, 9.04pm

I've been doing really well since starting my job as a camp counselor. There's only been 1 day this past month where I wasn't okay but I was still able to handle it really well. It's been 8 months since I last cut. Nick and I are becoming pretty serious. He spent the night last night. It was perfect.

15th June 2016, 6.22pm

I'm almost done with my first week as a day camp counselor and god damn do I love my job!! Yeah, I'm super tired each day after work, but seeing the smiles on those kids faces each morning makes it totally worth it!

11th June 2016, 1.14pm

I've been doing really freaking amazing lately! I finished training for my summer job yesterday. I'm so excited to start on Monday! Life is actually going great and I'm so excited to see what happens next!!! :)

30th May 2016, 2.55pm

Today marks 30 weeks without cutting. Last night u was surprised by one of the exchange students I met 6 years ago. He's in the stated again for about 3 months. We caught up and talked a lot. It made me smile so damn much.

27th a may 2016, 9.52pm

I was super depressed this morning. I almost slit my wrists, to be completely honest. Ben talked me out of it, though. Then it started downpouring. It was wonderful and and made me giggle.

10.16am

There are still days where I wonder what I did to make David hit me. What had made him decide that I deserved to be hit? Did I actually deserve to be hit...? And I know how crazy it sounds... I sometimes wonder if I made any of it up. I didn't really talk to anyone about it when it was happening... maybe I did make it all up... I don't know...