25th September 2014, 10.58am

I've been sick for the past 4-5 days... At this point, I've completely lost my voice. I ended up skipping my two morning classes so I could get some more sleep to try and get better sooner....

On the bright side, I get to see Zach again tomorrow. I just hope I can talk by then!

Otherwise, nothing is new really. I don't really even know what to talk about. I just want to go back to sleep... I have work 12pm-3pm and then my chemistry lab from 3pm-6pm and finally my first chemistry exam at 7pm. I don't have my Introduction to Theatre class tomorrow, so I can sleep in a lot more which is fantastic.

19th September 2014, 9.35am

I just cried most of the night... The only thing I have to look forward to right now is seeing Zach in about 11 hours...

10.21pm

I hate when I open up to people... Why do I do this to myself...? I hate when people try to help... I always just end up worse... Please just stop.... let me figure shit out....

8.25pm

I just don't see a point in trying anymore... I just want to die already... I don't want to be here... It's so fucking hard not to cry in front of my roommate while my entire world is crashing down... I can't do this anymore....

18th September 2014, 9.34am

You people should snapchat me... I'm so bored and will answer I promise ;-;
My snapchat is just conromeg
Seriously... You should do it and keep my company :D

8.32pm

The longer I'm up, the more depressed I get... My wrist is red and swollen from snapping a rubber band against it all day to curb urges... I don't know how much longer I can do this bullshit... I'm so lonely and so out of place here... Why should I bother if no one will notice that I'm gone??

10.24am

I've been surfing Tumblr and I found this really great thing.

"Sometimes recovery is waking up early to write in coffee shops and practicing yoga and eating lots of fruit and chocolate and sometimes it’s staying in bed all day and hiding from the world until you can stop crying. All of this is okay. What’s important is that you take care of yourself no matter what kind of day you’re having."

Isn't it just absolutely perfect?