17th September 2014, 9.15am

I don't have class until noon today, but after that it's just classes non stop... I get to see Zach in just two days. I can't wait to be in his arms... Maybe it'll make the demons quiet down for just a bit...

15th September 2014, 9.06pm

College is begin to takes its toll on me and my relationship with my boyfriend. We got in a huge fight yesterday and actually broke up for a bit, but I'm not counting it as an actual break up... I just need to seem him... Just four more days...

In other news, I only have 17 days until I go to Green Bay, WI to play for the halftime show of the Packer vs. Vikings game. It's exciting but scary as all hell.

14th September 2014, 3.57pm

All I ever do is upset my boyfriend... I don't do anything right anymore... I should just leave him so he can be happy again... I don't want to leave him... I love him so much, but I don't want to see him in the mental hospital again... That hurt so much last time... I can't do this but I can't hurt him anymore....

11th September 2014, 6.02pm

I've been getting more and more depressed lately. I don't really know how to fix it anymore either... Nothing I do works. At the moment, I have a rubber band around my wrist in case I start trying to find something sharp... I just don't know how to be happy anymore... I don't think it's homesickness, though. No, it's much more serious than just that... I've been wanting to hurt myself a lot recently... I haven't been eating right or at all... I just want to stay in bed for a few years or so...

5th September 2014, 8.10pm

My depression is getting worse again. All I want to do is hide away in my room and cut... I feel so lost here. I feel like no one wants to talk to me just because I'm new... I hate it... It doesn't help that I have social anxiety....

2nd September 2014, 1.31pm

I'm just super bored today. I had one class at 8am and that finished up by 9.15am. I went to lunch with two of my friends. Now I'm just waiting for the anime club meeting to start at 6pm....

1st September 2014, 1.29pm

Today's been a pretty good day. Classes start tomorrow. I only have my math class at 8am tomorrow then I have my Anime and Manga club meeting around 6pm. It should be plenty of fun. I just miss my boyfriend Zach. I got really depressed the other night and actually ended up getting pretty drunk at a party. I can't wait until I can see him again. I miss him so much....