13th May 2014, 8.29am

I am surrounded by IDIOTS. I hate my literary visions class because it is full of redneck assholes and bitches. I like maybe three people in this entire class. I want today to go by quickly. I just feel like sleeping. I don't really have much to talk about, I'm just super bored. I've finished everything for this class besides one assignment. I just don't know what to write about. I was thinking about doing something really personal just to fuck with her, but I'm not sure.

8.51am

Just finished. I think it looks good but yeah....

12th May 2014, 8.22am

Literary Visions is the worst class. We have to write a six word memoir. I came up with a few but I think I'm going to use "Been there, done that. Never again." I just like the way it sounds. I'll post the little picture later. I think it looks cool but that's just me.

7th May 2014, 10.48am

That scary moment in class where you can smell gas and the room you are in is connected to the boiler room.

2.13pm

I can't keep my mind off of David. I haven't heard from him in two days. I'm worried, but I know my best friend still talks to him which eases my mind a tad. I don't think I'm ever going to stop worrying about him... I mean, we were together for over nine months. What's a girl to do?

I think Sean asked me out last night. I really don't know though. I'm still confused about all of that... I'll ask him after I get off work tonight, I guess. I have work from 4-8pm tonight. I really hate work. I just want to sleep. I'm still planning on calling in sick on Friday because I just really don't want to have to deal with them. My brain is mush from yesterday's exam still.

I saw Zach again last night. It was the first time in over a year that we've seen each other in person. It was kind of nice. He really hasn't changed much besides the piercings. He has a girlfriend. Her name is Mary. He isn't happy with her though. He wants to have options again, but she is literally head over heels for him and he doesn't want to break her heart. I have given him advice and he's shot it down every time so I've kind of given up on that one. I'm really tired....

6th May 2014, 8.56am

No. Just fucking no. I don't want to be around anymore, but I don't want to kill myself. I see only one solution. Run away. Get the fuck out of this god forsaken town and just keep going.

5th May 2014, 10.14am

Today, I have my AP psychology exam to try and earn some college credits. I feel like I'm going to fail miserably. On Thursday, I take my AP literature and composition exam. I'm not as worried about that one. English is easy for me.

On Friday (2nd May), I left my abusive relationship with David. He has tried to get back together with me, but I have denied him every time. I don't want to hurt anymore. As of yesterday, it seems like he has accepted it. We do still talk, but I don't really want to at this point.

There is another guy, but I've already told him that I need some time to move on. He understands completely and thinks it's for the best if we wait. His name is Sean. He lives in Menomonee Falls and lives just down the road from my father. I really like him. He is terribly sweet and caring and loving and affectionate. He doesn't want sex really he just wants to cuddle with me and hold me in his arms. I really like that about him. He has this unique quirkiness to him and it fascinates me. He is so caring and sweet. I know I already said that, but still. He also is into the whole Neko thing, which is nice because I really want to be able to wear my ears more once I receive my tail in the mail (I ordered it 1st May). He isn't the best looking, but I don't really care. He's adorable in his own ways. He's so cuddly and affectionate.

I can't believe I only have 3 more days until my 18th birthday. I don't feel like I'm any older than say my freshman year of high school. It's strange to think that I will be going into college this coming fall. It's hard to wrap my head around that. Haha!